This question is becoming the bane of my existence. You will more than likely get a different response based on who you speak with, but what I am finding is that overall you will get the same general response: “What makes you happy?”
That answer, I would wager, is the problem to my question. A lot of things make me happy. Baking, coloring, singing, pretending I can write music, writing short stories, talking to people, watching movies, making movies, playing with my cat, swimming, scuba diving, video editing. With this response, a lot of people then divert to: “Well, if you had an endless supply of money, what would you do?”
To which I reply, MORE BULLSHIT! These questions don’t navigate your life. If anything, they confuse you more. I am a 24 year old film school drop out, who after 6 years of pursuit am finally (hopefully) getting my general studies associates degree from the community college I took duel enrollment courses at IN HIGH SCHOOL. I have been working as a tour guide and customer service rep for the past five or so years because I was born with this damn silver spoon in my mouth. No, really…I am so good at communicating with people I don’t know, you would think that I blend the Blarney Stone for breakfast and drink it like a smoothie.
So when you ask me “If you had an endless supply of money…?” I tell you what most people would, I would travel. I would spend time with my family, and my boyfriend. I would learn about other cultures, I would learn how to shoot a bow and arrow, and tap dance, and create pottery. God knows what else.
Unfortunately, being a full time student is NOT a lucrative career.
I suppose the reason I am so worked up about the issue is because people ask me this on a daily basis at work. “What do you want to do?” People love to ask tour guides this question. I think mostly because it is universally acknowledged that being a tour guide is one of the most unappreciated jobs. No, I don’t think I deserve a Nobel Prize, and yes I will admit that being a server or working retail is a close competitor, but for the most part, this job is up there with awful career paths. I guess I was just hoping that by now, I would have figured out where I want my life to take me.
I used to be so self assured when I was younger, and part of me thinks that I hate my younger self SO much, that my aspirations as a youth are tainted as well. I can’t even come close to connecting with the dreams I had when I was in high school, because I can’t connect with who I was then.